The 343: The 18th Anniversary of 9/11

photo credit: Stand Up America US

Shanksville, Pennsylvania is 1,694 miles from Santa Fe. It was the Shanksville Volunteer fire department — forty members, sixty or so calls a year — that first responded to the crash of United Airlines Flight 93 on 9/11. They found only fire, smoke, pieces of the airplane, and incinerated body parts.

The World Trade Center in Manhattan is 1,984 miles from Santa Fe. 343 NYFD firefighters climbed the stairs to the towers to rescue people, all to be killed when the towers collapsed.

On our department, Hondo, we have firefighters who have asthma or arthritis. We have firefighters who struggle with anxiety and claustrophobia. More than a few have anger issues. One has PTSD from Iraq. We have those who are struggling financially and have troubled relationships. We have old guys — even older than me — with stiff hands who struggle to get into gear at night. In short, we are like everyone, we are everyman (and woman).

The 343 were mostly in their thirties and forties. Some in their twenties, but more than a few in their fifties and even sixties. They were our age.

They were not Odysseus or Achilles. They were like us. Surely with many of the same afflictions.

That morning, life asked them a terrifying question, “are you useful?” 343 individuals, just like us, just like you, trained to be useful, prepared to help, said yes.

A while after 9/11, a younger firefighter asked me, “is courage something you learn, or is it something you’re born with?”

Without thinking, I responded, you learn it. Maybe my answer was a way to address the doubts inside me, the question I had. Had I learned enough, did I have the courage to do what the 343 did? Courage isn’t the absence of fear. Courage is the ability to climb those steps while you are scared, while you are praying that you won’t die.

Most firefighters don’t think of themselves as heroic. Although many begin the career enamored with the idea of being a hero, most don’t plan a heroic death. I’ll leave that to the Valhalla worshippers.

Most often, it is just all of a sudden, out-of-the-blue. There you are, life asks, and you have to make a choice. On the fire department, there may be a familiar hand on your shoulder. Or, on impulse, you put your hand on the shoulder of the firefighter next to you. There is work to be done, there are people who depend on us.

You take one step forward.

You learn this by absorbing it in your pores, surrounded by a culture, by brothers and sisters, who share common cause, who share history that reaches back to the Greeks. At that moment, maybe terrified, you think, I could not live with myself if I left my brothers and sisters down in a time of need. I could not live with myself if I didn’t do everything in my power to save someone. That’s the creed. You don’t know that it’s taken root in you until the moment life asks.

And, it is not up to us what life asks. It’s up to us to choose how we will respond.


Victor Frankl wrote of his experience in Auschwitz, “We need to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were being questioned by life — daily and hourly. Our answer must consist, not in talk and meditation, but in right action and conduct. Life ultimately means taking the responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the task which it constantly sets for each individual.”

Most of us will not face a 9/11 and be asked, are you useful? But every day we are asked in smaller ways. Every day, all around us, people are suffering, people need our help, our kindness. Every day there are small opportunities to be useful.

So today, on the 18th anniversary of that terrible event, there will be memorials and moments of silence and meditation. There will be parades. Yet today, and maybe every day, the best way to honor the heroes of 9/11 is by “right action and conduct.” It is by being courageous ourselves.

The best way to honor the fallen is by being kind today. The best way to show that we are not afraid is to be useful.

We may not be Odysseus or Achilles. But we are here to live our lives large and heroically. We are here to take care of each other. We are here to take the lessons of the fallen and make the world a better place.

Be brave. Be kind. Fight fires.



Writer. Retired Firefighter. Dog Lover. Buddhist Beginner.

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